But there is this thing about waiting...
I am happy, for a while...
happiness turns to expectation...
with each expectation, hope raises...
with each raise in hopes not met,
they get dashed...
my hopes then turn to flickers.
Yet, You say wait...
But the thing about waiting is that...
I grow weary and tired.
My flickers of hope wane
with each downturn...
Hope turns into doubt...
Its so horrible being there...
because I doubt even the air I breathe.
You still say wait...
But the thing about waiting is that...
My doubts turn into fears,
fears so enormous and gigantic,
they engulf and overwhelm me...
so much so that I think am holding my last breath...
Yet You still want me to wait...
But there is this thing about waiting...
What do I do while I wait?
How do I not go through the motions?
Wouldn't it be horrible if all I lived my life for was just what I was waiting for?
How about living for something bigger than the expectation?
So while I am still clinging to the hem of Your garment,
teach me how to wait...
I will keep on waiting.
I will keep on waiting.
I do hope you have all had the start to a pleasant week. You know, I woke up yesterday feeling miserable, kind of like one of those old feelings you thought you had conquered a long time ago. That feeling alone triggered so much fear and doubt that i felt unbalanced through today... but you know what? The devil is a liar! Indeed, all that has been washed anew is a new creation. I just had so many fears about many unfulfilled paths I am still waiting and trusting God for, and I had let that take a huge toll on me. Thank His Name for the Comforter that sustains us all. I just want you to know that no matter what area of your life you may be waiting on Him for, remember that our strength will continue to rise as we wait on Him. The hardest part is that waiting period, and what we do as we wait counts, because that is the period of refining and molding. So as you wait, how are you going to let Him refine you?
