Thursday, April 21, 2011


while I let life sit me down and i learn my way back to HIM and the me centered there.

I will be back - i promise.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Acts of Faith: On Being a Wreck and Upside Down Part 3

            I survived yesterday... the cold still isn't gone.. but *shrugs* regardless I must still move on. So I took off today and fixed up the room i moved into... *i moved into a new apartment*.  As I rummaged through my stuff, i found a letter I wrote to myself just before my freshman year. I kept it up on my desk all through years 1 to 3 of college except these past 2 years... don't know why I didn't put it back up afterwards. But reading it made me smile... that smile of contentment... that little girl then didn't know what lay ahead as she typed that and yet, she still forged ahead... *sigh* God is good, when i think of how far He has brought me. 

p.s. and yes, now you know my real name. But please, continue to refer to me by my pseudoname :)

And speaking of God...  He and I are having another tussle... I haven't spent quality time with Him over the past couple of days... I've felt too disorganized as well... disorganized in this sense ->
   And I was going to continue in this downward spiral you know, i might as well and wait for God to send a Rambo or something to clean up my room and unpack, cure me of my cold/whatever it is I have, convince me to be genuinely joyful because change is okay and maybe even pay my bills? Okay i am definitely asking for too much. However, in the words of Rev. D. Martyn Llyod-Jones "...defy yourself..." And so i did. I have the choice after all, He has given me that much. And so step 1 of getting back on track was the room ---> 
 Step 2 --> Taking better care of myself: physically, emotionally, spiritually... all the 'llys' you can think of. My friend D put it this way: "You've been to the mountain too many times already these past couple of weeks, you need to start enjoying life"... I concur. I'm always looking at the glass half-empty rather than half-full. 

So here is to me relaxing and taking life easy *learning how to take life easy* henceforth by His grace. Yes, raise your glasses or cups of water or something to that :D


Monday, April 4, 2011


Today's weather is absolutely gorgeous... feels like this --->

Sadly, this is how i feel inside ---->

I just want to run away from it all... and in the rain too... like these carefree children, not worrying about what tomorrow may bring. Unfortunately, i can't do that, but suck up to life and take the remaining 2 of my 3 exams today :)

And not to forget that i am sick with a bad cough!

Song of the moment - Asa's Subway

7p.m. can't come any faster :p

Sunday, April 3, 2011


Something I will tell my Daughter earlier on... and something I wish we are all told as teenagers :)