I've been disillusioned for the past two months or so... maybe even more time than that. And its not just that feeling, there has been anger, and sadness and guilt... and more.... This song explains a bit of how I've been feeling. Talking to D and my Daddy today made me realize how far I've retreated... i've been running... hiding from people... I can't say it is over... that I suddenly understand and I don't want to hide anymore. One thing I do know is that I want to stop. Stop looking back, stop hiding, stop thinking everything is meaningless and find meaning... step by step. I feel much better now than a few weeks ago... although I know i can be much better by His grace.
SO please pray for me, for this new person He is crafting me into...
