Sunday, September 30, 2012

Finding God in the... [What]?

For the past couple of weeks, I've gone through a rush of varying emotions which ranged from a peak of elated joy and happiness - you know, the kind you think will just never end, as though you will never ever come down from such a high; to a trough of despair and confusion - the kind where you think you are in the wrong place and maybe for the wrong reasons. The trough was mostly me freaking out about my lack of time for myself and slowly coming to the realization that I've chosen a line of training that of course demands time and all of myself and more time and more of me than I would have liked to imagine. It's one thing to have thought of it abstractly and another thing when your feet are drenched in it. However, as I sat in that state, I made a mental note to have personal goals to accomplish through the week, and amongst that was upping my G-time, literally that is how it's written in my journal  (personal time with God). In the midst of my busyness, I've found that it's easy to spend 10-11 hours of my day in lab or wherever your place might be and forget that there is a Sustainer that webs the galaxies for His purpose... bends stars at His will and loves me so passionately to die in my place... it's easy to forget that. In upping my G-time, I was scavenging through Jeremiah, trying to feed off His breath of words to my "supposed" trough. A couple of days ago, I came across this:

 4 This is what the Lord Almighty, the God of Israel, says to all those I carried into exile from Jerusalem to Babylon: 5 "Build houses and settle down; plant gardens and eat what they produce. 6 Marry and have sons and daughters; find wives for your sons and give your daughters in marriage, so that they too may have sons and daughters. Increase in number there; do not decrease. 7 Also, seek the peace and prosperity of the city to which I have carried you into exile. Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper." Jeremiah 29 (NIV)

So here are the Israelites in Babylon, carried away by King Nebuchadnezzar, against their will. I can't even begin to imagine what that must have been like - in the midst of so much confusion, despair and regret, they were probably expecting to hear a word that God would send a deliverer to propel them out of captivity. But instead, they hear the opposite. They are instructed to: "Increase in number; do not decrease".  I was challenged by that verse. For some reason or the other, I have often found myself standing at a cliff-hanger… almost like I think I’m in an intermediate state waiting for something big to happen. I neglect the fact that the big is happening now, like right now as I speak, walk, sleep, eat, talk, write… the big is now! In my present state, I must find satisfaction and contentment in my territory.
Note to self: I must increase. Yes, I am blessed where I am. Even in my lack... even in what I don't have... I must still increase. They were instructed to also pray for the city that they were in, because if it prospers, they too would prosper. 
Note to self: If your lab prospers, you too will prosper. I don't even need to tell you what I started doing next. 

The next verse that came to me as I considered things in my trough was Esther. Remember her? A girl who during the exile of Israelites and the reign of the King of Persia, although an Israelite, became Queen in a foreign land. A classic syndrome case of: from grass to grace. My favorite line from that story is what her Uncle tells her when he comes to her for help due to the verdict that was out that all Jews should be killed. He said to her:

            And they told Mordecai what Esther had said. Then Mordecai told them to reply to Esther, “Do not think to yourself that in the king's palace you will escape any more than all the other Jews. For if you keep silent at this time, relief and deliverance will rise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father's house will perish. And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?”
(Esther 4:12-14 ESV)

Esther was brave enough to move from victim to victor. She was challenged to realize that part of her bottom-line was happening now… not later. Not tomorrow or in a few years… but now.
Note to self: I was born for such a time as this. My life, my timeline... everything has been leading me to a bottom-line. Where I currently am is part of my bottom line. Never mind the sweat. Never mind the tiredness. Never mind the lack. Never mind the things I covet. All of my life has been leading towards this... and even beyond what I had ever imagined. I was born for such a time as this!

Now my next job is sitting back and basking in that for… the rest of my life.

            I don’t know what you are in the midst of…
            Busyness or downtime,
Joy or sadness,
Abundance or lack,
Pithiness or Nebulosity.
Whichever the case, bask in the fact that:
1)    You must increase wherever you are.
2)    No matter how your life came to be, or where you currently find yourself - You were born for such a time as this.

Have a splendous week of ecstatic joy and present contentment.

                                                                                                                                       Mwajim Al. 


  1. There is so much to reflect on here. I love that verse in Jeremiah, and like you, I was just struck by the timeliness of "Pray to the Lord for it, because if it prospers, you too will prosper". It's not even just the physical place that I'm in; it's also the mental/emotional state. You know? If your good mood lasts, so will you. If your servant heart prospers, so will you. If your desperation for God is long lived, so will you. It's a reminder to guard even the things that we don't think to guard - to pray for God's blessing over the non-tangible things that we need to sustain us through the tangible things.

    God is good. Thank you for sharing this, Mwajim!

  2. You don't even know how much joy I have right now just reading this. It was meant for ME. Lol. This is EXACTLY what I needed to reflect on this morning. God is so good, He knows the right word for each of us. No, we must not merely live our lives going through the motions. The time to ACT is now. The time to INCREASE is now, not later.

  3. Miss. Fab, I'm not surprised we both enjoyed this. There's so much to reflect on in much. It's a message that will last us a lifetime, by God's grace. Love it!

  4. I'm glad the you got something out of it. It is always about the now, the present... reminding ourselves that He wants us to enjoy this very moment rather than continually living in the past or worse, the future!

  5. I'm glad you enjoyed it. And thanks for the insight... I never thought of it that way - praying for our mental/emotional state to last... Food for my thoughts... :D