Five years to six years ago I was in the middle of change, flipping through from high school to college. I am back at the same cross road again, only this time, miles ahead and looking through the mirage ahead to graduate school. In the midst of change, it doesn’t help that I’ve allowed myself to be bottlenecked by trepidation and nonchalance and ingratitude. Little by little morphs of my old self swayed along by vices that I fear will make me forget the new and reconciled me resurface in ways that jolt me. As I try to steer strong handedly through the looking glass of the future that I know is not mine to predict, I feel the old familiar heart beat of anxiety… the old mumble of confusion… the old glare of despair… and it disgusts me to say the least.
Mover and Shaker that He is, in His own time has ordered my steps. Wonderful father that He is has kept me from day one of college to this very moment. Regrets along the way… yes! Reasons revealed slowly that make me see He has a plan… yes! Despite that and His blessings, I’ve successfully found a way to systematically show ingratitude… I mean its okay to be shocked at wonderful news… but to be shocked to numbness and to think of it with fear and to act as though the Lord did not grant me this joy? Wow… that my dear friends is ingratitude. I’ve been ungrateful, systematically trying to counteract good tidings as though He isn’t the originator… And of course, this has affected me in more ways than you can imagine… so more that I think I lack the spirit of joy… I even began to think I wasn’t a happy person. No more!
So it is with great glee that I will like to tell you that missus here has received invites to visit from a good fraction of the graduate schools she applied to!!! To say God is good is an understatement. And I would like to invite you to remember me in your prayers for strength, wisdom, composure, humility, favor and gratitude.
Till the next time - CIAO :-D
This is such wonderful news! I'm so happy for you. Hearty congratulations and best wishes for this exciting new journey ahead :)
ReplyDeleteThanks :) I am excited too hehe.
ReplyDeleteThank you!!!
ReplyDeleteHAHA thanks Jaycee. I believe this is just the beginning as well, regardless of the outcome.
ReplyDeleteAnd omogosh i just realized... u r back!!! To blogger world i hope, you've been off the radar for a minute. I need to check back at your blog :D
ReplyDeleteMostly, we would say 'Good job you deserve it', 'your such a lucky person' We all tend to forget that heart of gratitude. It happens to the best of us. Congrats tho babes. Thank God for what is yet to come.
ReplyDeleteThanks :-D And yes you are right, it does happen - its keeping in check and acting on that feeling that should occur afterwards.
ReplyDeleteAWWWWWWWWWWWW........Congrats dear!!! I wish you all the best in this new chapter!
ReplyDeleteGlad u took the time to thank luv, that's what's most important me thinks....all the best too, don't forget to come share the good news when it happens too :)
ReplyDeletePS: I tagged u as a stylish and versatile blogger over at mine...details there
ReplyDeleteI'll be sure to by God's grace, and thanks.
ReplyDeleteI'll look and hop on that joint soon. Thanks :D
ReplyDeleteThank you! Yes, I'm excited. P.S. I live in MD too oooo :)
ReplyDeleteWowwww....God is GREAT. Congratulations, darling. I'm more than ecstatic about you. I've been traveling with you on this journey (through your blog), and even more than this I'm excited at the testimonies that are to come. This is just the beginning. Lol.
ReplyDeleteawwww I remember how I felt when I got into grad skool. That is good news! All the best!!
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